“Let yourself be inert, wait till the incomprehensible power that has broken you restores you a little, I say a little, for henceforth you will always keep something broken about you. Tell yourself this, too, for it is a kind of pleasure to know that you will never love less, that you will never be consoled, that you will constantly remember more and more.”— Marcel Proust, from a letter to Georges de Lauris c. October 1905, featured in Selected Letters
Being able to reject the things that do not feel natural to you both cognitively and psychologically means that you’re prioritizing a healthy state of the soul. Being able to reject without questioning whether the act of rejection feels valid or not is a power move and we should all be able to afford these power moves. Certain things of huge meaning and importance come to one’s conscience whole and unfiltered. They stand on their own. Your ability to say no is just as important as your ability to be welcoming and say yes. You might have zero idea regarding what’s behind that sort of vague and undefined “no” but it’s important to stand by it and act accordingly. You do not need always to justify yourself to yourself. Some things feel unreasonably just not valid and that doesn’t always extend to your ability or inability to question things in further depth. It might feel superficial to you and likely to transform itself in the near future but you need to be able to reject what you feel like rejecting. When you trust your gut feeling all the way and allow yourself to go wrong with precisely That Gut Feeling is when you encompass most stoically and largely the thick and thin layers of growth.
